Friday, August 13, 2010

The sugar rushed update

Instead of the typical 'back again to UTP again' title, I owe this post title to 3 Big Apple donuts that I had just consumed not long ago, way past my bedtime at 1.00am. Thanks to this kind friend for the tasty treat, plus the unexpected sugar boost that will keep me awake for a few minutes more. If it wasn't for him, I would have not updated my blog tonight. XD

I'm back from DFP. Due to the hectic week upon arriving back here, I had no time at all to update anything until now. The Tapestry of Colours performance was a blast and I felt we have done well to achieve such a mileage. There are some minor complications here and there, which is to be expected, and I think everyone did great to overcome them together as a team. Thanks to the audience, and some of them consisting of UTPians themselves, who came all the way to KL to see us. Of course, I must thank my family members the most, who had given me plenty of moral support throughout the month of training until the day of performance itself. The list of people that I want to thank goes on and on, so unless I want to turn this into an appreciation post, I had better moved on. To all those who are directly or indirectly involved in making Tapestry of Colours a success, you know who you are. Sincerely, thank you.

The Tapestry of Colours itself is an amazing experience. Nevertheless, I had also 2 other objectives in mind: meet up with my family members, and buy myself a reward while I'm in KL. I'm grateful to be able to fulfill them both. I had dinner with my family and at least meet up with my little sister, who is underage to watch the performance. During a PC fair in KLCC that was coincidentally held during the days of our performance (thus giving me a chance to shop during one of the breaks), I bought a speaker which specifications is exactly nice for a bedroom (in this case, my hostel's room), and I'm very satisfied with it so far.

After being in cloud nine, it's time to crash-land painfully back to reality. One can expect things not to be rosy in UTP for someone who had just missed one week of lessons. Assignments and tutorials come hitting me in the face while at the same time I had to catch up on last week's syallbus. Not to mention, the 3rd week is commencing itself too with labs sessions on full run, so I had to keep track on both weeks' workload.

Unfortunately, it was during these busiest moment of my life that a ridiculously demanding commitment pops up and expect me to commit myself fully without giving me a choice whatsoever. There is a fine line between the priorities of club commitments versus academic commitments, and this line had been grossly invaded. They could have consider things from our side and compromise for us, while still achieving their own desired results, but I'm dissapointed they have not taken this approach. Hence, I have decided to firmly turn down this responsibility despite knowing well the repercussions I will have to face. I simply cannot let history repeats itself like last sem. It was not an easy decision for me, but I had to choose the lesser of two evils. To those who can still handle this 'responsibility' without losing touch with their academic commitments, I really admired them. I could not fathom how. Was it their sheer passion for the club or the club's field of interest? Or was it simply that they are faster learners who have no qualms about losing lesssons and are able to rebound back into tip-top condition in no time? Whatever it is, I am not them, I won't compare myself to them. If I can't handle this, I just had to back out for this once.

I sense a ticking time bomb, and I can only hope that this bomb won't go off. Will update whenever possible. Good night.

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